The start of a new season

The past four months I have been traveling the world with 'The World Race'. I have been spreading awareness of human trafficking, working in prevention programs, doing outreach, and diving into the depths of the Lord. I have been learning numerous things about myself, about the world, and about God. Below is the last blog that I wrote on the race. It is where I am starting anew and beginning a new season.

Atlanta.

A month of new beginnings…surrendering…listening…soaking…heartache…and many tears.

I thought Atlanta would be the easiest to leave because it is America; it is the last month of ministry, because I am so close to being at home finally. Yet, Atlanta is the hardest to leave.

The Lord tore down so much of my crap and my walls this month. I was constantly broken and constantly in the sprint position just waiting to run from God and from what He was starting inside of me and stirring up. 

He told me:

~To let go of all my hurts and scars from the past

~To surrender my desires and my dreams and my wishes because it is NOT about me, but what He wants

~That the hole inside of my heart was created by Him and for Him only; that no matter how much of my own stuff I put into the hole it won’t be filled because it was created only for Him

~To just take a bite out of what He has for me…it will be sweet like a strawberry

~That I am relatable to others, not the off putting weird girl that I make myself out to be

~That He is with me always

~To find the Jesus in people and to NOT look at the lies, desires, sin, or flesh that they portray

~To love without restrictions and just give up all preconceived notions

~To not be fearful because He will never leave me or forsake me

~To give myself more grace because He has already forgiven me and sent His son for me. He already loves me so don’t dwell on my past and what I’ve done

~To fall face first on my knees in front of Him and worship Him

~That I am starting a new season of my life

~To step into the plans He has prepared for me and not be scared or anxious about what they are because He created them for me. I may be uncomfortable, but it’s not about comfort for me, but about spreading God’s GLORY! 

God, I am tired of running. I am tired of being the constant position to run from you. So I stand and I wait in silence for your voice. 

Speak Father because your daughter is finally silent and listening!